I need to apologize upfront...I need a "bitch post."
The last several weeks have been difficult. My cognitive is in left field. I can tell by looking at Dwain's face that he is getting tired of trying to understand me. I can't blame him. It's frustrating for me also. He will never truly understand how much.
The work we do in the park includes cleaning Yurts. We clean Yurts minimum four days a week. My neck, arms, wrists, shoulders and remaining back area are aggravated. I have had strong cramping in my back. Only way to have them relax is for Dwain to massage the cramping area. I'm thankful that he understands my mime because sometimes it hurts to bad to speak. We only have two weeks left at the park and I will be glad to move on.
I am sleeping well, which is helpful (thank you Trazodone!), even when I can't feel that it helps. This is a typical complaint with Fibromyalgia patients.
Fibromyalgia is playing havoc with my broken finger. Most of the time, it feels like it is healing. Then my finger will feel different sensations like burning and aching. The burning is a Fibro sensation. The aching may be Fibro or just that it is broken. Who knows! I still can't use it. Who knew that little pinky did so much!
My IBS is starting to raise its ugly head. Right now I'm managing well but I can tell it is just on the edge of blowing up. I'm sure it is from over working my body and the stress of the holiday season.
Christmas is coming. I've done very little shopping. My stomach is starting to turn...no gifts purchased and wrapped, haven't figured out menus for the time kids will be home.
I can't get ahead, let alone even.
Dwain has been snappy. I feel I'm walking on egg shells. My reaction is to tense, causing additional pain.
I can't move very fast. Seems everything happens in slow motion. So frustrating.
On a happy note. I have an appointment to get my haircut. That will be nice.
A second happy note...a former classmate was in the park today...Bill Potter. We visited nearly an hour. It was nice to see him.
A third happy note....Had a wonderful telephone visit with Lyla. How happy she is. I also did texting with Patrick and Joshua. I spoke with Seth briefly on Friday and Adam and Heather on Saturday.
Glad to be able to pour out some frustrations.