Thursday, June 14, 2012
I wish I could find the time to write. I miss writing. Writing is like talking to a friend. My emotions and the happenings of my day dictate what I write and how I write.
Tonight, my thoughts are bouncing from one thought to another. Not focusing.
We had interesting weather today. I woke up at 6:30 and it was near 70 degrees and blue sky. By dinner time it was raining, thunder and lightening.
We were planning to go to Josh's baseball game, but by 3:30 it was cancelled.
Heather and Matt will be traveling to Salem on Wednesday to spend time with Jeff. He graduates from high school the end of this week. Patrick and Josh will be staying with us. Better stock up on groceries to feed two teenage boys. :-D
I haven't been good at keeping up my journal, my home nor my duties in the RV park...I am failing miserably. This is not easy for a type A personality. Damn disease! I'm trying to be "OK" with the amount I do accomplish rather than frustrated with what I can not do. Wish me luck please!
Monday, April 23, 2012
So I sign into my blog and find out there is a new look. I hate change!!! I think it is because I must adjust. Adjusting is difficult for a Fibromite. I hope the adjustment period won't take long.
We have had beautiful weather the last few days. Thunder storms in the evenings. I enjoy the sound. :-D
Our Miss Lyla spent a week with us. We sure enjoyed her. She enjoys taking every minute of your day and I enjoyed being with her. I had to give up household duties, including fixing dinner, while she was here. I didn't have extra time. You can imagine how it stacked up around here. She is a delight and worth every minute.
My doctor ordered another round of antibiotics for my bladder infection. My intestinal track is sore, but the infection may be gone.
I started a weekly Bible Study on David. I think I will enjoy the lessons. I've met many new friends. Heather is also attending. It will be nice to spend an evening with her without husbands and kids.
The Park is coming along. The new owners arrived for a week.We are enjoying getting to know them.
I had a mini breakdown last week. The combination of over working my body and the stress of alot to accomplish in the park and in my home. Dwain didn't help much. He was having a rough couple of days too.
Hugs to everyone!
Yes you can ... learn how to use a new program.
Yes you can ... stand strong to up to the minute challenges
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Monday, April 2, 2012
Have I got your attention?
Fibromyalgia messes with my cognitive abilities. The symptom does not discriminate. It can intrude while I'm speaking, writing or while I'm trying to have a quiet moment, thinking. My mind will go blank while trying to think of the right word. I know the word I'm trying to say. I can tell you what letter it begins with. I can see the word written in my thought. I just can't get the word out of my mouth, on paper or in my thought.
When I was working for an attorney, I began to switch words while typing. The word I switched the most was "court." I would type "could" in place of "court." When you are doing a legal document, the word must be correct. You can't replace "court" with "could."
One day while talking with Dwain, I could not speak the word to complete my sentence. I closed my eyes and began to speak. I was able to complete the story. Each time I have difficulty conveying my words, I close my eyes and wha-la! I can complete the sentence. Although I am ecstatic to complete thoughts, I'm sure Dwain is happy too. This has been hard on his patience. He has learned to wait. However, once in awhile, he snaps at me to complete the sentence. So I know it is frustrating for him. I feel bad enough without his snaps. My self esteem lowers a notch.
Soooooo, if you have this Fibromyalgia symptom, try closing your eyes. I hope you can complete your story, your written word or your thoughts.
Yes, you can ..... complete your expression
Yes, you can ..... learn new technique,s no matter your age
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Our winter went by fast. We parked in a different area this year . Our neighbors were hard to get to know. If we return to the Yuma area, we will stay near our friends of years past. The desert was cooler this winter. The wind blew almost every day.
My Fibromyalgia has been difficult. I've had increased movement courtesy of my Restless Leg Syndrome. The scary feeling of Anxiety has increased daily. I'm still trying to talk myself down, but it is getting more difficult. I had a UTI (Urinary Tract Infection) on our way home from Arizona. It's been almost a week since I've taken the last of my medication. I'm not having symptoms, so hope the infection is totally gone. In the beginning, I had the usual UTI symptoms. I also had increased Fibro pain through my hips and upper legs. I had a hard time dealing with the pain but after three days the increased pain was gone.
Dwain and I have taken a summer job. Wish me luck! I'm hoping once we have been here for a couple of weeks, we will be ready for the public. We are managing an RV Park. There are 31 sites, so not too big. We have stayed in the Wallowa River RV Park many a summer. The owners live in Seattle, WA. Care takers are needed for the time they are not in the park. Which will be most of the summer.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
We have had a nice three months in southern Arizona and California. We had more wind in Yuma than usual. A couple we graduated high school with, Tom and Marlys, joined us for a week. The four of us then traveled to Anzo-Borrego State Park in southern California. There is so much to see. I encourage everyone to visit this park. They have campgrounds as well as boondocking areas.
We have thoroughly enjoyed our time with Tom and Marlys. They are "good people." Marlys has a medical issue that requires her to take rests, so that helps me to rest myself. Tomorrow Dwain and Tom will be taking a hike in the park. They are hoping to see Big Horn Sheep. Marlys and I are going to the town of Julian. I understand there are unique shops with an apple theme. I hear their pies are to die for, so we will test that piece of information. :-D
Wednesday we will begin our trek north. We want to be in Wallowa by April 1st. We may take a day or two at Joshua Tree National Park before arriving in Apple Valley to visit friends. A nice amenity of receiving Social Security Disability is that campgrounds on government land are half price via my "Access Pass." We also enter the park for free. What a blessing. Living on a fixed income can be tough at times.
Yes you can ... renew old friendships
Yes you can ... enjoy camping with Fibromyalgia
Friday, March 2, 2012
Today the wind has been blowing 40 mph so it is an inside day. Got a few things done. It has been a relaxing day. We will have desert with Tom and Marlys.
I have cornish game hens in the oven and they smell good. mmmmm
My eyes have been feeling out of sorts this afternoon. They feel warm and are fuzzy. Gotta blink a couple times to clear the fuzzies. :-) Yes, Fibromyalgia can touch every part of your body.
I will be making changes to my blog page. I will enter widgets that I lost with Blogger's deletions. Also, my photographer husband, no longer sells his photography on Imagekind. We've decided to leave the photos for purchase on my blog.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
I needed to get the March monthly bills posted online so they could be paid on time. I had done all but two last night. While posting I could feel my anxiety kick up another notch. Decided to write about it here, hoping it will help slow me down. I keep hearing my oldest son's voice, "Talk yourself down Mom. You can handle this, just calm yourself." Until today I've been able to hear his voice and advice and calm down. Tears are flowing, sniffling. CRAP!!!! I better get off the computer and breathe.
I promise to tell the end of this story later.
It's evening and I survived my melt down. Our friends arrived. We had a good visit and shared dinner. Tomorrow we will take them sight seeing.
You may wonder why I entitled this post "Anxiety is Creeping into my Body." That is how I was feeling at the time. The feelings of emotion take a grip, my breathing becomes labored and the grip continues to become more intense. So I feel like I'm being smothered as it takes over my body.
Thank you for listening today.
Monday, February 27, 2012
We went into town early this morning to pick up my monthly prescriptions and got groceries. After returning to the desert, we went to visit a couple we met while playing music on Sundays. Dwain has been giving Pearl dulcimer lessons. I visited with her husband Roy. Nice folks, nearing 80. I dream of living to their age and wish I could be in as good of shape mentally and physically.
When we came home I did a few chores, laid down for about an hour. When I got up I had a snack and worked on a crossword puzzle. I didn't like the idea of fixing dinner, but we all know that dinner needed to be made. After dinner, I posted our March 1st bills to be paid. So...I was able to accomplish a few things, but the day was relaxed.
My shoulder muscles have been so tight. There is an advertisement for massage for $35 for an hour. I'm tempted to schedule an appointment.
Two high school classmates will arrive on Tuesday afternoon. Looking forward to their visit.
Oh! I wanted to mention that we have cooked two meals and one dessert in our solar oven. They all turned out yummy. Doing a roast tomorrow. :-D
So nice to write about happenings in my day and not be crabby.
Yes you can ... share your skills with neighbors
Yes you can ... have a relaxing dayR
Friday, February 24, 2012
It was another warm day, but we had 20 mph winds, which made the heat tolerable. My pain level this afternoon and evening has been a 7. Assuming because of two busy days in town and the heat. It is interesting to me where the pain jabs show up and how they often feel different. I'm out of Tramadol. I needed two of my prescriptions transferred from another pharmacy. Walmart will not take a request for a transfer over the telephone. You must bring the bottles in. Intellectually, I know there is a good reason. BUT, my pea-brain wants it handled over the phone so I don't need to go into town until I pick them up. I believe I have more situations since my Fibromyalgia came to stay that frustrate me. Walmart only wants to protect me, NOT piss me off.
I miss my kids while we are in Arizona. I appreciate living in an era that I can talk to them by phone, email and Facebook. I have three children. Seth and Heather are our first born (and second born). Yes, they are twins. They are 36. Adam, my baby, is 33. Seth lives in Chicago. Heather lives in eastern Oregon in Wallowa and has two boys. Adam lives in Vancouver, Washington. He has a daughter, Lyla. I could not be more proud of the adults they have become.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
We were going to purchase another solar panel, but the store owner talked Dwain out of that idea. Amazing to have a store owner talk you out of spending $400 in his establishment. So instead of saving the $400, he spent $369 on a solar oven and cooking pans. My husband has no will power...if there is $$$$, he must spend it. I hope you all pity me cause sometimes that's what I feel I need. :-D
My neck is about to fall off. I don't do well in this heat. I have neck tie cooler. I got it ready but left it on the kitchen table. As always my brain doesn't work causing brain fog.
A sad note of interest. Two helicopters collided, killing 7 Marines. This occured last evening in the hills behind where we are parked. When there is a loss of life like this, I want to go home.
On a happy note, a friend just called me. He is in Seattle. It was nice to visit with him.
Boy, I'm a crab...sorry
Yes you can ... try to keep a positive outlook. I failed today
Yes you can ... try to keep cool. I failed today
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
The temperature went up by noon. We had an 81 degree day. Once the heat hit, I melted and my pain increased. I had difficulty walking. Fatigue nailed me good. When that happens, my tummy feels sick. Once we got home, I layed back in my recliner. I feel I drank plenty of water. So frustrating when your body fails you.
You can ... put a smile on your face when you would rather not.
You can ... enjoy shrimp tacos!!
Monday, February 20, 2012
Are Your Medications Working For You?
Do You Have a Physician You Are Comfortable With?
I was fortunate to have my diagnosis of Fibromyalgia four months after my symptoms came to stay. I saw a Rheumotologist named Dr. Valentine. He was a hippie in appearance, long hair pulled back and Birkenstocks. Dr. V ran many tests. All were negative. He said it was important to rule out diseases that had similar symptoms. I received the Fibromyalgia diagnosis. He gave me a prescription for Trazodone, to help me sleep at night. He believed that you start one medication at a time, with the lowest dose. I am thankful for this practice. He would wait two weeks before adjusting the sleep medication and/or starting a new medication. The Trazodone worked well. I then was placed on Effexor XR, 75 Mg. There was a slight improvement. I was then placed on Effexor XR, 150 mg. A measurable improvement. Mind you, I was still in pain, but the measurable difference allowed me to be on my feet for a period of time.
Then without sickness, Dr. Valentine died. His office had names of physicians who treated Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue but they were a hour drive from where I was living. There was a time of anxiety because I didn't know where I would go, would I be comfortable with the doctor, what if I couldn't drive for an hour then another hour back? My daughter called me in the middle of this worrisome time. She was working for a photographer and he had Fibro. She asked him for a doctor recommendation. This was an answer to my worries. Terri Russell is a Nurse Practitioner. She treated a hand-full of Fibro patients. I became comfortable with her. She added a blood pressure pill as the Effexor made my pressure increase. She also gave me Hydrocodone. I used it for break-through pain, but not daily. Flexeril is a muscle relaxant and I feel the difference if I run out. She also started me on Guaifenesin for the mega amounts of phlem I deal with. These medications worked well, with no side-effects. She also told me about Lysine because I had too many cold sores, which she told me was a Fibromyalgia symptom. I personally like Terri, but there were several situations that made me uncomfortable. I opted to look for another doctor.
I found two women doctors, in practice together, that treated Fibromyalgia. They have both treated me and I admire their type of practice. They started me on Neurotin, Tramadol and Amitriptlyn. The Amitiptlyn is for my Restless Leg Syndrome. Tramadol is for pain, which replaced my Hydrocodone. It is not a narcatic.
I feel fortunate that I have not had a reaction to the medications. After reading many blogs and talking with new friends on Facebook and Twitter, I understand that I'm a minority. Many suffer trying to find the right medication. I want to encourage you to find a physician you are comfortable with and to keep looking for the right medication. I believe that learning to listen to what your body is telling you, finding the right doctor and medication are all important to helping you live a better life.
Yes I can ... Advocate for yourself.
Chronic illness lowers our self esteem. We must work to be strong.
Yes I can ... Find a doctor who I can work with me for my health.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
We are parked in southern Arizona in a place referred to Imperial Dam/Senator's Wash. This is BLM land and termed Long Time Visitors' Area (LTVA). You can stay two weeks in the LTVA for $40 or $180 for "the season" which is September to May. There is every type of RV here. They are parked every which way. The reason we return to this location is because of the quiet. We have made friends and participate in activities.
My Fibromyalgia is in check. We had a few 80 degree days where my Fibromyalgia symptoms increased. However, they were better by morning. One day a week we travel to Yuma, which is 20 miles south, to run errands. It is always a long day and I spend the evening in my recliner. Otherwise, while I'm home, I have been working on household chores. Also, compiling tax info. By doing these things, I'm able to break when my body tells me it needs rest. The chores I've been working on are ones that need to be done yearly. So, feeling accomplished. Dwain and I walked nearly 2 miles, which is a mile longer than I've ever done. My upper legs do not enjoy the last half mile, but I've done it! Proud of myself. I know it is good for me.
I hope everyone is having a nice day. Hugs
You can ... hear your body when it talks to you. Are you listening?
You can ... step out of your comfort zone. Have you lately?
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Since my last post, we went to Vancouver, Washington to volunteer at Fort Vancouver Historical Site for the months of October, November and half of December. The pace as difficult, as we also had concentrated time with Adam, Carrie and Lyla. Miss Lyla is an amazing little women.
On December 13, we traveled to the Oregon Coast and stayed at Dwain's family homestead to prepare for our kids and grand kids to arrive for Christmas.Well, they arrived. We had lots of food and good times. Then they left. It took me the next week to undue every preparation I made. I gave Lucy a good haircut and I got a haircut too! On to Arizona...
We took a couple of days in Nevada at The Valley of Fire State Park. It's a great place to camp...quiet. Then on to Quartzsite, Arizona. Planning to be in Quartzsite through the end of January.
Since we arrived in Arizona, I have been sleeping 9 to 10 hours a night. I'm so thankful. I've also been able to rest when my body tells me during the day. The weather has been sunny (most days) and I remember why we come to Arizona. :-D
You can ..... recognize when to take care of your body ... just listen.
You can .....reach out to a friend for support.